___I AM______ROT
rotrotrotrotrotrotrotrotrotrotrotrotrotro
___i might destroy you

____ you reenacted every role man-
kind has bestowed on Women sinc
Adam and Eve got kicked out of Eden.
The Object, the Muse, the Victim,
the Outsider,, the Martyress, the
Self Mutilator, the Lolita, the Nynph
the Beauty, the Saint, the Canvas,
the Listener, the Mother, the INVISIBLE
INVISIBLE
INVISIBLE
Don't you hear yourself??????????????????
this is madness you made me other
you say. I am nothing, a vesel, I am
----dead, dead, you are letting me
fade away in your hands because you are
--------------------------I HAVE BEEN
ALL THE SCREAMING WOMEN NOT BECAUSE I
AM BUT BECAUSE WE ARE NOT NOT NEVER THIS
IS NOT ABOUT YOU
i am no beauty for you, no mother, i do
t hurt for you, these are my feelings
myself, I am hurt, sad, have been hurt
by you by many, I have been fucked and
raped and touched and sacrificed lik---
TO MAKE ME INOCENT IS TO MAKE ME OBJECT
MUSE VICTIM OUTSIDER MARTYRESS SELF MUTI
LATOR LOLITA NYNPH BEAUTY SAINT CANVAS
LISTENER MOTHER
i am now invisible trully.in this story t
hat i am telling you, wispering, mute, yo
can hear me! its about dissapearing, you
you wont find me because i am not there
you cant touch me, cant see me, i have
been lost, A LOST OBJECT beware dont
swalow sharp objects. They will cut you
from the inside. you are bleeding.
crying, screaming ghost
________i might destroy you
i am inside, subject alive and rotting
melting with the space surounding me

i noticed I was crying because the water
was running down my cheeks
i am crying

to make inocent is to make object
static,

i might destroy you



everything moves around me, it touches
e, the noise, I see everything far away
ut my body expands, melts into the floor
this home, this house, and them, I am the
i cant separate
they touch my skin, are my skin, blow on
y neck, the air hurts, skin sensitive
ike fever it hurts
__________it hurts
___________it hurts

___everything touches me and i am going

Kai Smiles, Laughs loud, runs, crawls
has no fear,
kai is a child, a boy, queer, sometimes
i am that kai I met a long time ago
the joyfull one. Most of the times it is
more. queer kai, feels, sadness, but----
without fear, because I am not invisible
I hide__sometimes, crawl, play, destroy
My name_____was molded, shaped
too many eyes on her, she sleeps now
she is tired. I hold her, hug her, care,
she needs alot of care, and I give all
_______________________I love little_____

______________I AM KAI

i am going to cry

el aire el mundo me acaricia el cuerpo
y voy a llorar lagrimas corrosivas,
porque no quiero ser la unica que siente
dolor
dolor

hacer inocente es hacer objeto

i am not a woman
i am nothing you made of me

JE BENT HET OFFER
TRAGIESH
GEDOOMD OM HET VERHAAL STEEDS WEER TE HERHALEN!
EN VROUW IS EEN OFFER
EN JIJ
Je bent en vrouw
opgeofferd voor hen, voor anderen je bent
vrouw
------------------------------------------
je keek naar mij en besloot dat ik een
vrouw ben -------------------------------
my body
women
___your body...you are them, women
sacrifice
doomed to be sacrificed
the story repeats itself again again again
a woman is a sacrifice
and you
you are a woman
----we are women
my body i women
women, all the figures that she has been
that carried her name she
________________________she
________________________she
________________________she
-------------you are she, you are them
I dont like to be watched
-----________seen as women
---------------------------be called HER
I am not them
____________they tought me to be her
______________women poses me

_____________i look at my body and I see
___________________HER

I close my lips over the rim of the cup
tight. nothing will seep into my mouth
I pour and the liquid slides over my
face, nose, lips, chin, nose, it runs
down my neck and chest into the bathtub
surrounding me. The movement, the act o
of pouring into, feeding, My hands embr
aceing the cup, my lip ssuporting with
care, the - lifting the hands-
feeding myself, filling myself, it fill
s me with joy. I repeat, again, again,
again, filling the cup, feeding, without
the disconfort of penetration, invasion,
the barrier that separates me from
other, i stay empty, i feel full

There exists no individual women in this
body, here
we are always multiple

women are-is-the body I leave behind
when I pretend I don't exist
When I am invisible
Women is she
________who stays behind who becomes
invisible
his hands on my shoulders, trying to
catch my-----soul
I see nothing
re___________
____________________remember nothing

remember nothing.
I am invisible to this person pressing
his mouth on me, stroking me, choking
with his mouth face
kissing this body that I left
____she
___they have learned to be passive
to wait, to forget

I am not SHE











You know it's okay to be a woman,
right?

Yes















when you made me women, us
you say I am inocent, good, women is
kind, careing, life
------we should embrace/be deamons
agency,
you forget that when he is sad I die
or he kills himself we left vulnerable
but I will claim my agency
Become decay
______________BECOME______________________
____________SHARP OBJECTS_________________

____she walks through the forest, drawn
by spaces,the small ones, holes in
the ground, in between rocks, coold, mois
moist. she stick her hand inside, more
doesnt fit, she wants to feel like she
could become stone, small, static
fragment and whole. this soft warm body
of her s i
__________s too much separated, too much
____she will be joining with other, being
critter. she knows she should be critter as the body she habits, but the pull
to be more rot, easyr, small, slow, old
the life she has to live is too long for
her liking.--I don't want to die, I
a sleep that actualy lasts long, years
maby, love that is unconditional of lovers
existing, huging, validating


_____________SHARP OBJECTS________________